Break Away Experience. Take 2

 We walked the plains together. We witnessed the death and the chaos. You, my readers, and my friends, reached out when I was literally in a hole I found while the coyotes swarmed and snarled. 

We hitchhiked together. We were attacked, jailed, belittled, and shamed. 

We crashed cars, escaped hospitals, experienced heart ache and capture. 

All this for nothing? No. I refuse to believe that. You see... The Break Away Experience is my literal DREAM! I think about it all the time. However, the way I went about things the last time was ALL WRONG. 

I was a man spiraling. I was a man hurt, lost, and confused. I thought the BAE was a movement, a cause, and an answer. 

Remember "Find Yourself. Conquer your fears. Learn your limits. And meet your God"? I sure do. But I let my ego get in my own way. I don't want to be a leader. I want to be a friend to those who are like me. And I need a solid foundation if I'm ever to help another. 

So I'm back in Spokane. This is a city which I truly feel home. And this time? Well... I'm hoping to do things the right way. 

I came here with nothing but a dream, and so far things are coming along. I start school on the 21st and I ultimately wish to achieve a Masters in Social Work. 

Big dreams... Little steps. That's what I like to say. 

I'm not giving up on this blog. It's the only thing that stuck by me. 

I love you guys. I'll get y'all updated.

Much love.

-Joe 🦋 

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