The Break Away Experience

 I was reminded of this story today. I like it.  A PIG AND A BAKED POTATO Choices. Everybody's got them. Even me. Me, the guy who so often found himself in jail, that he believed spades to be a viable skill for the betterment of one's life, and who cherished a nice cardboard box when the wind bit his bones more than a call from a friend. A guy who considered the wrapped cheese in the dumpster behind that shady old buffet to be a treasure only I could appreciate. "Only I." Looking back on things, I suppose that's an egocentric way of thinking. That only I understand this experience or that one. An egocentrism that I apparently choose daily. Starting to see what I mean? Choices. We all got them. If it had ever come down to me to choose who the savior of the world would be, a baked potato, or Lisa Westfall. I'd choose the potato. Lisa made me feel as if I had been surviving on nothing but Snickers and cigarettes for weeks. Sick to my fucking stomach. Oh, how I wi...

 Its depends on who your God is and how you perceive her, him, it, or they. Some Gods do reveal themselves. It could be a random call saying hi when you feel lonely. It could be the wind feeling just right. Maybe you turn to a particular Bible verse that you needed to read at just that moment.  Or maybe you're doing reiki with some Buddhist friends and suddenly, you're a little bit closer to Nirvana. It could be a God revealing themself to you. Or maybe you don't believe in God. So.... you do a mock prayer just for shits and giggles and in that moment of self reflection you realize something you hadn't before and it clicks that win or lose, you may be alright. Honestly? Who the fuck knows? Life's not black and white. It's grey. So stay open! It helps immensely as I've been slowly..... slooowly.... SLOWLY finding out :) -Joe 🦋 

A huge weight has been lifted from me. I've wasted too much time. But the past is the past. The future is up for grabs. Thanks God. Whoever the fuck you are......  -Joe 🦋 

 Like Ice Cube says "Today was a good day". And shit... I didn't have to break out my AK either. Really just reevaluating my day and I have no complaints at all. I'm sore as shit from the gym, but that just means the gym did its job. That or I'm just an old fat man now.  Goodnight. And to those who have hit up my email.  I appreciate the encouragement. But the old email is too busy now since getting out of jail. Hit up alightreleased@gmail.com from now on :) -Joe 🦋 

 So... I got the job that I've been really excited for since scheduling an interview. Guaranteed full time. Great days and hours. I'll be off by 3pm everyday. And I was told no drama. Love that! I was worried about how I quit my last two jobs. I was hoping that wouldn't come up, but after I was told she straight up fires dramatic people I told her about TB's drama and how at W my vape was stolen. So everything was out in the open and I was hired on the spot. Basically gonna work alone now. Which I love!  Now I can continue car shopping. Already arranged to look at cars at a dealership. Just a patience game now.  The rivers looking good. I can kayak straight from my backyard all the way to the lake. So I guess I'll break out my kayak soon. I haven't used it since Yorty Creek in Cali.  Loving life bro. Lately I've loved it a lot. 

 Bro I was struggling in that place like a pig caught up in chicken wire. And I'll be real. I did much less weight than I used to. Had a few girls looking at me like... "who is this dork?" The cool thing is however, since I'm not interested in any of them I didn't get bothered by it. That would have been enough to get me to bail when I was younger. But today? I'm unsinkable. I saw the Judge who sent me to jail there too. She looked at me, quickly looked away, then looked back. I just smiled and couldn't help but laugh. No hard feelings your honor. We're cool.  Good day today :)  -Butterfly... Just kidding.  -Joe