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So Its Spokane For Me

 I was doing really good in Spokane. I was making a ton of friends, I had a spot, a job, I was enrolled in school, and was really plugging into the community there. And I REALLY love that city.  I just don't like Sandpoint at all dude. I only came back for my ex gf and my legal issues.  Now that I've reached a point where I'm COMPLETELY over my ex and now that I'm COMPLETELY done with my legal issues I feel like I can finally say I've accomplished what I set out to do here and can just focus on me. I miss my Buddhists friends really bad too. And my sponsor here was my ex go's sponsors husband. To me that was just weird.  I like the recovery a lot more in Spokane too. I just fit in there. I don't fit in in Idaho. Not really anyone's fault. I just don't fit in here. It feels like some retiring community for old white people.  I like cities and I like Washington. And Spokane is the coolest city I've ever lived in. So that's where I'm headed ...
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This Blog Might Get Interesting Again.

 I'm going back to California.  Maybe Flordia eventually, but definitely California.  Fuck Idaho dude. I only came here for that girl. Fucking stupid walking away from the life I was building in Spokane.  But I had to because I was technically "on the run". Now that my legal shit is clear I really have no reason to stay here. I'll miss my sister, but I can't just base my life on her. Fuck her autism. If she wasn't autistic she may have come with me to California too. Or Florida.
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Yes You

Let me tell you something that'll never reach you if I'm preaching. But please. Let me preach. Let me waste my breath on my ego and speech.  Let me talk too much. Let me try and try then realize and give up on my ego and me. The best you can be... is you. The greatest you'll achieve is knowing that "you" is ok. You is great. And you are the only you that'll ever be...
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I Wonder If I Should Say Happy Birthday.

 Chances are I'm completely blocked, but since it goes back and forth all the time, I'm gonna give it a shot. Might as well.  Another good day today. I'm amazed how much I like my job. Can't wait for pay day though dude. 
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I'm Really Sad About It All Today

 I'm sad. 
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I Do Orientation Tomorrow!

 I'm very happy to start working again. It's not even a money issue. I'm good there, but I've always worked and its been lame not having a job. I'm really excited to car shop. Me? Drive? It's been a while since I've driven legally. 
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The Pig and A Baked Potato

 I was reminded of this story today. I like it.  A PIG AND A BAKED POTATO Choices. Everybody's got them. Even me. Me, the guy who so often found himself in jail, that he believed spades to be a viable skill for the betterment of one's life, and who cherished a nice cardboard box when the wind bit his bones more than a call from a friend. A guy who considered the wrapped cheese in the dumpster behind that shady old buffet to be a treasure only I could appreciate. "Only I." Looking back on things, I suppose that's an egocentric way of thinking. That only I understand this experience or that one. An egocentrism that I apparently choose daily. Starting to see what I mean? Choices. We all got them. If it had ever come down to me to choose who the savior of the world would be, a baked potato, or Lisa Westfall. I'd choose the potato. Lisa made me feel as if I had been surviving on nothing but Snickers and cigarettes for weeks. Sick to my fucking stomach. Oh, how I wi...
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