What Do I Do Now?

 I have tried. I've tried pretending like I'm a part of the community. But I'm not. Ive literally had handcuffs put on me for going to a meeting. So I stopped going. Now I'm fucking drinking again. I feel like I need to just LEEEEEEAVE!!!!!!!! I think I need to just get the FUCK out of here. Just take my $100 and go somewhere else. And all I have is this stupid, dipshit, attempt at a blog. Its all I have. And I "concluded" it. I suck dude... that's the problem. I suck. So what do I do now? What do I do? My family knows I'm drinking. I told them I'll leave, but they said no. I'm fully prepared to hit the streets again. Chaos is I've ever know. It's all I know right now.  I can't be in this town. I'm NOT a part of the AA Sandpoint community. I'm not. They drew the line in the sand. They made it a war. Not me. They threw me out. Now its "better"? 

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