Yo.... I'm excited

 Maybe it's because my diet is on point. Or fuck it. Who knows? Maybe its YOU blog...

Maybe its finding out I make almost 40k a year now. Big money to a bum like me. 

Maybe its the friends I'm making. 

Maybe it's my fuckin ELIZABETH MEOWING at my window! 

Maybe it's being able to say sorry to Lillee Mae. And giiiiiirl.... I see you smilin when we make eye contact. 

Maybe its the gym.... 

But maybe it's that I'm alive and BREAKING AWAY from my mask. 

Sitting in AA after The Break Away Experience, coming back to THIS town after the journey I went on. 

The deaths I saw....

The violence.... 

The desert,

Drugs,

The commune,

Buddhists,

Natives,

Fuckin Portland bro?

Rehab,

Being legally missing..... 

After all that? 

I don't have time to try impressing people I DON'T EVEN FUCK WITH anymore. 

I'm me baby. And I do what I think is right for me and my people,

My tribe! 

I'm excited for life because I'm going to live it my way.... 

Yea... I talk too much.... I tried warning Lillee before we were dating... I talk too much girl. She says... nah I like it... Wanna know what I said. 

You don't know me. 

Fact.

But I like me dude. 

I love.... 

And I'm loved.... 

I'm not weak for loving Lillee Mae either. 

At least I'm brave enough to wear my heart on my sleeve. 

And some guy tonight... who I didn’t even thought liked me very much.... told me he looked up to me and always likes to hear what I have to say.... 

Thanks bro... 

No one else congratulated me. Probably because I challenge their beliefs. 

Fuck it though dawg. 

what? Wanna walk around without a challenge the rest of your life? 

I don't. Challenge me baby. Challenge ya ol pal Butterfly. 

I like the juice it provides. 

Ever meet a weirdo like me?

MUCH love,

-Butterfly

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