Ooof forgot to tell her happy birthday

 At this point I wonder if something like that would even matter? 

She has 90 days today too, but she doesn't need to hear that shit from me. 

But still... I would like her to know I'm really proud of her. This shit ain't easy. She's doing good. 

But I hope she knows that. Me saying anything to her would probably just be annoying at this point. 

Maybe she'll be at the meeting. 

Doubt it. 

Doesn't matter. 

Wish this girl knew me without her in my life. She kinda got a taste of what I'm like without her. She had a FAT crush on me when we were both cashiers, but I never even thought about her. I was doing me. 

She helped me bag one day though and I remember thinking.... this girl is a fuckin goofball. 

Then we hung out and I quickly started to really like her. 

This girl is kryptonite for me man. 

I got my 90 days though. 

Doin good. 

No crack, no smack, no crank, no drank and livin good.

-Butterfly. 

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