The failure of our relationship

 I don't take enough responsibility for the failure of our relationship. I was the insecure one who didn't believe Lillee could love somebody like me. I'm the one who started the jealousy game. I'm the one who was scared to be vulnerable. True vulnerability. Im the one who started the "Jealousy one up war". 

Now you're sad because she won't even look at you. Now you're sad because you want to see her at meetings, but you can't talk to her. 

Too little. Too late bro.

What? You want a reward because you're not smoking crack today?

Well.... too fuckin bad Joe.

You lost Lillee Mae. Pam, Jett, and Kim didn't lose her. 

You did mother fucker. 

Still mad at those women and AA though. 

But why did you lie.... the day she told you that you were physically attractive but not emotionally attractive. She said it seemed like I was trying to be her boyfriend again. You said "pffft.... yea right". 

Why did you lie bro? 

Because it hurt right? Because that was your biggest fear? So get drunk and lash out right?

Of course you wanted her back. 

You said you call everyone sweetheart. 

You don't.

Butterfly you prideful moron. 

Gym time baby. Get pumped Butterfly.... ya dog.... ya mean machine. 

WOOF!!!! 

WOOF WOOF!!!!

-Butterfly 

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