Is this a cosmic joke?

 I was just telling people how I don't think I can go to AA anymore. These women DESTROYED our relationship and they've done it to others too. And I'm trying to explain that it's impossible for me to move on from my ex when I have to see these assholes every day man. I wasn’t going to go in. But the women convinced it'll be ok. So I went in. 

Then boom....! 

Its Pam's birthday. 

Fuck that bitch dude. She took my men's phone list then goes to court. You're welcome for helping you move Pam! 

I tried to share honestly how I'm not feeling safe in these meetings but all I could say was 

"I'm desperately trying to recapture the spirit I used to have for these meetings. But I'm failing".

Then I yelled "I'M FAILING"! 

Then "I can't do this shit bro. I really can't". 

So I left. It was too much. 

Fuck these women who destroyed our relationship. Its so obvious that Pam and Jett approached my ex because my ex won't approach other people. She let's people come to her and the biggest morons and gossips in town approach people. Why couldn't she hang out with all the bad ass women in AA? At least I saw her hanging out with a solid woman on Sunday. Thats fuckin dope. 

Pam tried convincing a wife to move away from her husband. The husband and wife had been doing AA together for a year. 

Good job Pam. Funny how much relationship advice your single ass has. 

Btw... how come everybody is ok with her cross talking? And she lied about her years of sobriety. 

Fuck these women dude. Me and my ex could have made it. We were getting better with communication. 

I didn't bring my ex into AA for any reason other than I thought it would help her. I wish I had known the advice she'd get would be that I'm trash and to leave me. I wish my ex would have talked to me instead of these women. I fucking tried bro. 

I don't want to be reminded of all this anymore. 

These women fucking killed our relationship. And going to meetings is just a constant reminder of that. 

-Butterfly

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