Dude...

 So I'm running around getting ready for work right now and I found the dream catcher I made for my ex and the bird candle holder I surprised her with. I made her give me that shit back after she said she was physically attracted to me, but not emotionally attracted to me. 

I shouldn't have asked for these things back. Thats some of the pettiest bullshit I've ever done. 

And I've done a lot of petty shit. 

She gave me the fidget spinner back too. I didn’t ask for that. That I actually tried giving back, but she said throw it away. Pfft... I'm not throwing that away dude. 

I'm not throwing away the letter she wrote me or the pictures either. 

Oh god though... Going through my old stuff I also found a bunch of letters from Jodie and a piano book she gave me. 

Now that shit?

That shits getting trashed. 

The whole thing with Jodie was so fucking stupid. I shouldn't have even told anybody here about that. Why did I talk about that? Was I trying to be unique? I think I just wanted to be interesting, and then when me and my ex started trying to one up each other in the jealousy game, obviously, I'd mention Jodie. 

I'm such a fuckin asshole sometimes bro. 

I really failed at being emotionally safe for my ex. Honestly, we failed each other in that regard. 

Just my thoughts. 

Today is a day where I can be kinder and less fuckin defensive. 

Today is a fresh start and it's already going well. I'm doing good today. 

I'm not trapped in the desert at least. Good bye forever Hermingston

Thank you Something. Thanks for letting me get here.

Thanks for sending Evan in the desert even right after I called you a stupid dick.

-Butterfly 

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