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God... Fuck you, and lemme ask

I feel so out of touch. It seems I've lost so much. Will I ever be enough? Will I ever be in touch With me? ​I want... Ha, does it matter? "I want" is always on my mind. Will I ever consider Anything But me? ​Oh God, I just want to say fuck you. Oh God, I just want to ask you: Was I there with you Before I came down to this Earth, Stuck here With me? -Butterfly

Its frustrates me

 When people literally shut their eyes and plug their ears when I speak its just like.....  Dude? Whats your fucking problem with me? Like seriously? Im just sharing how I feel at a fucking recovery meeting. I'm not talking about you. Im not talking for you. You're embarrassing yourself.  -Butterfly 

My rude ass Cat

 Does anybody else's cat talk back to them? I tell Elizabeth that she needs to get her literal asshole OUT of my face. Then she looks at me, "meows" at me like she doesn’t give two shits what I think at all, then continues to do whatever the hell Elizabeth wants to do. Because its ALL about Elizabeth. Then she talks back! Rude ass cat. -Butterfly 

I struggle with loss

Im Tired!

 I'm fucking sick and tired of pretending a future is guaranteed! And who the fuck says theres a God?  All I know is I think therefore I am! Why am I sitting here waiting to go to jail? Why am I sitting here saving money I may never spend? Why am I trying to live in a land where....  I.... DON'T....  FIT IN!  I'm a man with 9 lives.  I've used 8. I want to LIVE!!!!!  I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!  -Butterfly

Bringing Back my YouTube

 I don't know how it happened, but all my original Break Away vlogs got deleted, but I'm restarting with a new YouTube.  I just enjoy doing it... So fuck it haha https://youtube.com/@thebreakawayexperience?si=HvE4x2dDEGGRtLea -Butterfly 

Must be crazy

 Saw Lillee tonight.  Must be crazy  Still love her.  Haha I hope she gets everything she wants in life.  Life's good.  -Butterfly